Monday, February 1, 2016


This is for those of you that
asked for a reminder to
Click HERE to read more.

I know the fast was started for
John (MyHero) and myself
please add my friend, Gert, 
to your prayers.
She lost her dear husband, Tom,
 on Saturday
If you are not a pray-er-
please send your best wishes 
for those that are fasting.

Also, please add my friend, Laura,
to your prayers.
She is now seeking some alternate
treatments for her cancer
because the chemo has stopped working.
I believe in miracles!

Thanks to all of you
that participate in 
even just by sending good thoughts!

Sunday, January 31, 2016


I was not going to post for a while
but God had other plans in mind for today.

My blogging friend, Gert,
lost her precious husband, Tom, yesterday.
He has left earth for his
This is the picture Gert posted
on her blog last night.
The name of her blog is
Rusty is their dog
who doesn't understand that 
Dad is gone.
Late last fall Tom, 
got ill and was hospitalized.
He has always been such a strong man~
Everyone thought he would have surgery
and then be okay.
Gert, as many of you know,
has MS and Tom was such a great,
 loving husband, friend,
and earthly caretaker.

Theirs was a marriage of love and devotion
that made others envious.
Sadly, Tom's big, generous heart
quit beating yesterday.
He got so tired 
that the Lord took him home.
While he is beyond all 
pain and suffering now,
Gert and Rusty are left on their own
to cope with this heartbreaking loss.

Gert in prayer today
and in the upcoming days.
You can pop by
and leave her a message.
It may help ease her pain just a bit
to know how much she is loved.
Rest In Peace, Tom.
We will see you

Thank you all so much.

Tomorrow is the fast for John's health
you can read about that here and here.
Please attach Gert's name to that fast.

Love you Gert!
Love all of YOU blogging friends, too!

Saturday, January 30, 2016

FEBRUARY 1ST- FASTING For Faith and Healing

You know I have never
had any trouble asking for prayers for others.
However, it is not in my nature to ask
for anything for myself.
I just have a hard time doing that.

A wonderful blogger,
who wanted to remain anonymous
until I put the squeeze on her because
of the great post she wrote about fasting,
Deb-Frugal Little Bungalow
put a call out for a day of fasting on 
behalf of my husband and myself
to take place on Monday - February 1st.
She explained all the different ways to fast.
For some it might be as simple as
skipping one meal that day-
or giving up snacks you would usually have.
You can read the wonderful post
she wrote about fasting here.

Now, those that know me well
know that 
part of my vocabulary.
I think fasting is waiting 10 minutes
after my meal
to eat a bowl of ice cream.
Yep- that's me!
However, I am going to join
that wonderful blogger and 
those that have agreed to fast for us, too.

I will fast and pray for my hubby's health 
and continued strength as he fights this battle.

Fasting is different things for different people.
I am going to choose a modified fast-
on Monday, February 1st!
So glad for these short winter days-whew!

Because I get up very early
I am going to eat an early breakfast
and drink clear fluids all day-
Clear fluids for me are water,
with or without lemon or lime,
and clear chicken broth.

IF you care to join us - please do so.
If it is not something you are comfortable with-
or you have a medical condition or-
you take food with medications...
just wing a little prayer up for us instead.

Bless all of you.
We are so thankful for those that leave us
comments and well-wishes and 
pray on our behalf
and send us their love.

You all are just


For those of you that choose to fast on Monday-
I'll send you an apple pie Tuesday.
I mighta lied about the pie......

I will put up a reminder on Sunday sometime.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

CUTENESS Might Be The Cure!

Even in the midst of illness
there are many things 
to make us smile.

Our youngest granddaughter 
is such a 
in our lives.

We had a special event the 
first week in January
that I will share a bit later.

Little Miss
was dressed for the occasion.
The photographer
 said our little
Anna Ireland (Bright Eyes)
got on the "stage" 
with no prompting 
and proceeded to ham it up.
Here are just a few of the many pictures
she took.

What? What?
Sure I can dance!
What? What?
You want to see me 
Okay- Here I go!
HEY!  Even the
fall down sometimes.
Just ask my Nana-
She's fallen on her butt 
a few times but you won't
be seeing any pictures of that here!

Okay- That's all the cuteness
I can pack into one post!

We have a long day yesterday.
We were at the cancer center for about 
Chemo, radiation, Dr. appointments
and assessments.

Thinking of this cute little face  
kept us smiling all day!
Hope YOU ALL have a great week
with lots of smiles thrown in for good measure!

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

GOOD MORNING from The Caring Bridge for John Kosmoski

I set up a website at 

By clicking on the link above or
it will take you right to the website.

The Caring Bridge asked for my contact list.
I gave them the whole thing so if you
get more than one notice
please don't send me hate mail.
You know me and 
TECHY stuff!
I barely know what I am doing
all the way around -life included.

Today is the first day of 
John's treatment.
Four hours of strong chemo

I will keep you all posted.
Thank you so much for your 
prayers and support.

I will try to keep a daily post 
(or every other day)
You can catch up there whenever you have time.
I think you have to sign in to 
access the site but it is safe to do that.

I have followed several
"journeys" that way.

We are off and running!
Wish us luck!

ps----MyHero is still 
"napping" with his little buddy
but I will haul him out of here soon!

Saturday, January 9, 2016

The Cancer Carousel- Round and Round We Go. Update #3

I just want to keep you all updated.
Please do not feel you have to 
leave me comments.
You are more than welcome to do that 
but if you just want to come and read
that is perfectly okay.

I know EVERYONE is busy-
especially after the beginning of a 

I just know y'all are dieting and exercising
and taking piano lessons 
and learning to paint and...
That was LAST WEEK!
Now it is time for the 
to kick in!

So- I have discovered that  this journey
into cancer is like being on a 
The Cancer Carousel!
You go round and round and round-
sometimes feeling dizzy from all
the information thrown at you-
sometimes feeling a bit disoriented
after all the procedures needed 
for effective treatment.

Here's where we are on
The Cancer Carousel..
We are on the innermost horses
trying to work our way out to the outer edge
so we can hop off this 

As of yesterday, MyHero, John
had a feeding tube put in
(yes-that is a good thing)
and a port for chemo/blood work
and they did a few more biopsies on his throat.
Close your eyes here if you are squeamish.
to rig up a feeding
tube for him.
I found a great one on eBay
but he didn't seem too excited about it
so I let it go.
I think it is still available in case
you have someone that is not
quite as fussy about those things as
MyHero is!
They are trying to find the primary source
of the cancer-thus the other biopsies.
IF they can pinpoint that,
the area of radiation will be smaller-
smaller area-less damage.

Starting a week from Monday
he will have 37 days of radiation in a row
(weekends off)
Every Monday he will have chemo.
On the days he feels he can do so
he will go for physical therapy for
mild strength training.

The Cancer Carousel 
continues to turn
and we are just waiting to grab the 
at the end.
It will be worth the ride
at the end!
Thank you ALL for your continued
prayers and support.
You're the best!
Love you guys!

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

MEDICAL UPDATE on My Hero- Part 2

Thank you to all of you that have
reached out with prayers and good thoughts,
cards and letters and gifts!
Thanks, too, for the
inquiries as to how we are doing.
It was kind of a 
around here---
but not in the way you might think----
more like THIS WAY----
While we celebrated a 
in the family room, 
 we were 
when they let MyHero 
come home for Christmas.
I didn't want to make you wait too long
for an update..
Sometimes you wonder how much information is 
and sometimes you know there are things you 
CAN SHARE and things you 
CAN'T (or shouldn't)  SHARE.

So- here goes-
I guess this will be a sort of record
for all of us as we hit the path to

After 12 days in the hospital 
John came home on the 23rd.
We were able to spend
with our family at our daughter's house.
John was able to sleep there
for several hours and enjoyed
his awake time watching the kids.

He still has an infection in his neck
but it is getting better.
They pulled the drain out today and that 
is one more step towards being
able to treat his cancer.

We asked them to put a pic line in
so that I can give him his IV treatment
at home.
That has worked out quite well.
He is mostly out of pain at this point
but is tired a lot of the time.

We see the oncologist and the 
radiologist on the 4th of January.
We are hoping that they feel the infection
has cleared enough that he will be able
to start treatment on the cancer itself.

We feel like we are in limbo
but know that is where we need to be
at this point.

We have a family wedding to go to on
Saturday and we are looking forward to that.
John was supposed to perform the ceremony
but will do a small part in the service instead.
That is okay.
The only BLUE we are feeling right now
is that soon I will be taking
our tree down and didn't have much time
to enjoy it this year.
We are looking forward with optimism
to 2016.
We are expecting the miracle of healing
to take place-
even if that healing comes in the form of
radiation and chemo-
a "modern miracle" if you will.

I hope you have a blessed,
wonderful, light-filled 2016.

I will keep you posted as we go along.
Blessings and love to all of you-
You are just

I have to give you a smile for the day:
Ryan, our youngest son, came up to
the hospital with us today so he
could take his dad home and I could
leave for an appointment I had for myself.
He said-when the Dr. was examining John-
"You know my cat has now cost me about
$1900. and he isn't getting any better. 
I'm gonna have to 
make a decision about him soon.  
I'd hate to be doing the same for you, Dad,
but these costs are really starting to add up."
John laughed- I laughed 
even the Doctor had to laugh.

I do think laughter heals a lot of wounds!
As you can see- the nut doesn't fall
too far from the tree.

Friday, December 18, 2015


I will do an update
without going into too much detail today.
There is much to tell you but I want
to get a basic post out there to
keep you all in the loop.

MyHero was admitted to the ICU 
with a massive infection in the area 
of the mass on his neck
on Monday night.
The mass is on the left side but
I thought I would spare you that.
You can see the swelling is already
coming down around and is under 
his neck-moving now to his right side.
He has been moved from ICU to 
the medical floor and will be 
in the hospital until the middle of next week.
He is off oxygen 
and able to eat soft food 
for the first time
in about 8 days!
Notice his arm?
To put it in simple terms- 
the IV dislodged 
and his arm filled with saline solution.
Just a minor "tick" in the world of medicine..
painful but not harmful. 

We have been praying for a miracle.
Did we get one?
Maybe- in a sense we did.

The Drs. all thought the huge mass on 
his neck was cancer growing at a super rapid pace.
It IS growing fast but a large part of the mass
was infection.

Another "miracle"?
The PET scan.
The Drs. warned us that the PET scan  
"could" light John up 
(like a Christmas tree-)
that his body was most likely 

that they can see,
in his body.

They could not believe that.
Neither can we.
The cancer team went from
"cautious approach for long-term success
and possible pallative care"

So, that is what we are going to do.
We are going to hit the ground and 
run hard.
He will have 37 radiation treatments-
5 days a week for 7 weeks+.
We can do this!

We need to get this infection under control
so we can move forward into treatment.
Praying for another little miracle there.

I was going to close the comments
but started getting them anyway-
lol- so I am opening them up again.
(you guys---shheeesshhh--
you can find me no matter where I am)

I will keep you all posted 
as we move along.
Thank you so much for all the prayers
and good thoughts.
I am overwhelmed and so is

Just so you know- 
We have had 
 at one point or another.
THAT is another small MIRACLE!
There is not a lot of laughter
on these floors.

Have a blessed week leading up to Christmas!
My super kids are picking up all the pieces
to make Christmas special for all of us-
shopping, cooking, baking,
wrapping gifts and doing it ALL!
What a blessing!!
In spite of all of this pain and angst-
we are blessed!

Love you all-Thanks again!

Friday, December 11, 2015

A Very Hard Post To Write- Please Pray For Us-MyHero Has Cancer

I have been putting off writing this 
because I hardly know where to start.
 My Hero has cancer.

He had a biopsy the day after Thanksgiving
and they called him on Saturday to tell him
it tested positive for cancer.

Today he had three scopes and another biopsy.
Monday we see the radiologist,
the oncologist and he has a PET scan.
Tuesday we have a CT scan.
After that we will know exactly 
what we are facing.
We will be in the biggest battle of our lives
(which is a whole lot different than the spats over
"WHY can't you put your underwear in the hamper?)

Please pray for MyHero and for our kids
and grandkids.
Cancer is not a ONE PERSON diagnosis
it affects whole families.

I am not going to be blogging for a bit
but I will keep you all posted from time to time.
I need to devote time and energy  
to appointments and care-taking.

Thanks to all of you that have followed my blog
and been such a great support in the past.
I appreciate it and love each one of you!

Have a blessed, wonderful Christmas
YEP-it is MY blog and I will say 
rather than Happy Holidays!
As you can see I am still my 
which just might be a good thing
in these upcoming weeks.  

Please pray for us and/or 
send healing thoughts our way!
Thanks so much!

Thursday, December 3, 2015

SCARLET FEVER IS ALIVE AND (un)WELL(come) at our house

I have had our Lulu here for a couple of days.
She had a light rash that started on her arms
and spread to her tummy
and then her legs.
Early on it didn't look like much to worry about.
Her Daddy took her to the walk-in clinic.
They told him that it was "nothing",
a reaction to something she ate or "something"
and sent her home with Benadryl.

She couldn't go to school all itchy
so she stayed with me and spent the night.
Yesterday, she got up and I looked at her.
NOW she had a REAL RASH!
I called my daughter and said-
She needs to see her pediatrician asap.
My daughter called and got her right in,
they performed the test and
(which is kinda like strep gone bad).

She is quarantined to my house for 
a couple of days.
She will be fine but needs some tending.
SO~I will be back in a couple of days with

Enjoy your weekend
and I will see you soon.

I think I might have a rash myself!
Yeah- and Happy Thursday to YOU, too!